Psalm 34

Today is the day I will get the result of my blood exam and see my doctor for confirmation of my 6th chemo, my last chemo! My past chemo treatments were just fine, the side effects for one week are predictable so even if I was in pain and uncomfortable for a few days, I know it will pass and I don't really have to worry about my sickness as my treatment is on course. However, I was apprehensive the past days because I already took antibiotic for 7 days for colds and sore throat but I still feel that I have stuffy nose and I could not have chemo if I am sick and I so desperately want to have my chemo on schedule!

When I woke up early this morning, I told God that I am afraid and could He tell me what to do. Can He please give the answer when I do my readings? I sighed and begged "Oh God, You have to answer me!" And there I read Psalm 34! I love 2 verses from that psalm and would even sing it as God's assurance to me. He just did not give me an answer that would reassure me but He gave me something He knew I love. There was nothing to be afraid of, He is in control! I was at peace as I softly and gratefully sung repeatedly...

I sought You Lord and You and answered me; from all my fears You delivered me. I look to You and I'm radiant with joy, my face is never clouded with shame. (my version of Psalm 34:5-6)

True enough, my blood result was fine and my doctor said that the stuffiness was just allergic rhinitis and that I would have my chemo as scheduled!

Thank You so much dearest Lord! Sorry if I am anxious at times. Bear with me because You really are my only hope. I love you!